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Better Than the OriginalYou make me feel different
You take my breath away
And stare at me
With eyes
Hypnotic, affectionate
You're the one thing I despretely need
Stepping close enough to me I feel your hair brushing my forehead
Angling your head down
Like you want me
Just as much as I need you
Making my skin feel warm
Plugging my wounds
Making me whole again
Thank you.

LiquorKisses twinged with liquor
My imagination? Or a reality
I'm drunk. Shit-faced. Plastered.
All I wanted was you. Was that so hard?
I just needed to lose myself for one night.
Spinning, going down. Throat burning. Eyes drowning.
Does this brokenness ever stop?
Am I ever going to find someone?
I know I'm young, but I've never needed someone more than I wanted him.
So keep them coming. Bottle after bottle.
Whiskey. Vodka. Rum.
I don't care, just make sure I can't feel anything.
Nothing. Especially him.
His kisses on my mouth, my neck and the back of my hands.
And my sobbing, scared to death.
What scared me was how ha

Strike A MatchSquatting down in the gravel
Lighting the fire
Setting your face aflame
Finally severing what's left of you from me
I'm so sorry
But I can't do this anymore
I can't keep this up

I've found someone who'll take care of me
(I think)
And even if I'm wrong its worth the risk

I'm tired of waiting up for you
Convincing everyone you'll come back.

I'm leaving you behind
I've done all I can do

Just remember
Even in a year
When I'm still wrapped up in his arms
And madly in love
And I've given him all of me...

I will always remember you.

Mantra"Your fine
Your going to be ok"
A broken mantra you hiss
Pushing your palms to your cheeks
Sobbing while
Everything in you pulls apart and breaks
"Tell me!"
Screaming now
Choking on what is left of your sanity
Begging for an answer
And now you feel sick
Because your still stuck
No matter how hard you try
You can't
Can't move on
Can't live
Can't explain
Can't breathe
Anymore at all
Too gaurded to understand

AchingI'm aching
Deep down I'm still dying
I need secrurity
A promise your not like him
A sign that the hallucinations are just that-
Not real. Fake.
Just make it stop.
Please end all the questions
And riddles
I'm too confusd to bother unscrambling
Save me 12
Drown me 13
There's only one winner
And now the gloves are off

Pawns of God"Why are you crying?"

"Why do you care?
Its not your concern
Like me, your just a pawn in his game."

And I'm the hostage
Choking me and meddling with my life
Russian roulette with a knife blade
To see where I'll cut today
But I won't
Because I can't

SkyYour eyes are like a sky
The deepest, richest blue
Cloudless, perfect, a void of escape
Not a sea taht I could drown in
Resting my head on the crook of your neck
Breathing in clean air
Instead of a plague you are a cure
The sweetest antidote
Intoxicating
This is a dream
Its unnatural-the way you make me feel
Is this a fantasy?
Or is it about to become my reality?

How Much?I thought I'd finally caught a break
Maybe after all this pain I've found solitude
But the whole time you were looking at me, you pictured her
Everytime you found your way back to me it meant nothing
That look when you see me, was only because I reminded you of her
But how can you deny that?
The glint in your eyes and the way you let me touch you
This connection I feel to you even now
Do I mean something to you? Or was I just naive?
I still love you.
So much.
But I hate myself.
Because I love you.
So much...

GoodnightThe words
They pound inside my skull
They scream
They hurt, the things he says
I know better but I don't want to
But when I close my eyes to sleep they flash
Etch into my skin
Burn across my eyes
Two words
I've pleaded to hear so desperately
But dripping
Drops of liquor
From the wrong tongue, with a kiss that burns like salt
"Goodnight beautiful."

Sneak InSneak in the window
I won't tell
Just curl up under the covers with me and hold me
Her brown eyes are closed
I just need one night
Of harmless teasing
Your mouth on my forehead
My fingers digging into your shirt, I'm shaking
Your own tears touch my cheeks when you kiss me-you commit the fatal sin
But with your hands in my hair it doesn't matter
The man and his adulteress burning in the fire they created
Your knuckles stroking my jaw
You kiss me and tighten your hold over and over
Since when its dawn you have to leave
The sun starts rising
And you're crying too
Because you don't want to leave
I make your life b

Open Your EyesHold me up
Don't leave me like this
If you love me and the wounds in my chest reflect yours tell me
Because every second I love you more
I can't explain it, I hate it
But I don't want to lose you
I'm horrified of being in love
But every time your near me that fear is gone
Why can't I stop loving you?
When I know you don't feel the same?
You hold her close, dreaming of her
But when I'm trying to stop the bleeding you are what keeps me sane
If ending me stops this feeling of loss, this is goodbye
But I don't want to let go
So please
Open your eyes

BecauseI don't know why I hurt so much
It's not like you walked out
Because you never walked in
And that's what hurts the most
Was it because she's prettier than me?
Skinnier?
Quieter?
Not loud, strange like me?
Maybe you just like the way she looks next to you
Or the flush in her cheeks, on her flawless skin
She's danity, and cute.
Shes also weak. And breakable.

It's because she's not covered in scars. Isn't it?
Because when she wakes up in the morning she's not thinking about a couple shots?
Wondering if she'll be clever enough to hide the cuts another day
Does that make her better? That she was no baggage?
She's scarless?

B

She Will Never Know...Its ok
I won't say anything
She doesn't have to know
We are alone in this classroom
I may never see you again-make this count
A small secret, between lips teeth and tongue
Breathless, you cool mouth touching mine
Promises don't know
That secrets mean nothing
If you kiss me, I promise she will never know
And when you pull away and still want her-I will completely understand
But when you take a breath and all you want is more
I will be here
Waiting in this empty classroom
Keeping our secret safe
Hold me close
And I promise
She will never know. :heart:

Ever AgainI need you
When everyone else turned on me you never did
You'd just shut up and hold me close
You wouldn't let them get me
You were all I ever had
Everyone keeps moving on with out me
Not caring if I stumble in the dust
But every time you'd kneel down and help me to my feet
Even when I was so horrible to you
When I treated you like I did to keep you away
So you would never hurt me like you did today
The mockery and the playful swats were an effort to keep you at bay
To never let you in
Because I'd seen what your kind has done to people like me
Used them, abused them
Chewed them up and spit them out
And I didn't w

Shut Up, VoiceI'm not worthless
But you are
Today I'll tell him
He'll just laugh at you
I want to stop
But you can't
I'm tired of being broken
You'll never be whole again
I'm better than this
You are nothing
I'll stand up to them
They'll just hit you again
I could be perfect if I try
Not as perfect as her
I don't want to go down that road again
All you can do is crawl
I'm not going to cut today
You're going to write that note today
They'll have to stop, sometime
It's not going to end

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Looking at you
Meeting your eyes
Holding your gaze and listen to you holding your breath
Realizing I'm holding mine too
Wondering what's going on inside your head
Are you fighting back temptation?
To push everyone else aside and pull me in close to you?
Kiss me 'till all the hurt is gone
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Struck dumb in this bliss
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Wondering why I'm watching you?
Taking in every inch of you?
Memorizing your profile?
And hoping I'm not making a mistake.

Figure It OutI've figured it out
Why when I think of you I break down
Because everyday I plunge deeper into this blackness
And I can't see the truth
As horrible as that sounds
But I don't know
If your just what you seem
A liar and deciever
Or if the way you look at me means something
But the reason I'm sobbing is simple
I think I'm falling in love with you
Slowly, but steadily
And I can't make it stop
No matter how bad I want to
It would be better for everyone if I was gone
And I didn't stumble over my own feet around you
I'm crying because I know I'll get hurt
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Fix Your HeadUnderstand him
Don't over think things
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by *malphasloveshisfries, Apr 8, 2012, 12:24:13 AM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

You make me feel beautiful
Like all my flaws perfect me
Just looking at you makes me smile
Meeting your eyes turns me to nothing
But I'm something
You care about
And even though this affair will be short
I don't care
Because you make everything seem worth it again
You pinch the sun between your forefingers
And pull it back to the sky
You make him turn and run
When you smile I know
I'm done
What I didn't think was possible
Is with you
The perfection of your eyes makes me
Feel something.
That I'm going to be alright.

Alright...by *malphasloveshisfries

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

*SomeonesBella Apr 14, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

''And even though this affair will be short, I don't care '' This is amazing. Kinda sad because I'm going through something similar, but you described the feelings perfectly.