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Alright...You make me feel beautiful
Like all my flaws perfect me
Just looking at you makes me smile
Meeting your eyes turns me to nothing
But I'm something
You care about
And even though this affair will be short
I don't care
Because you make everything seem worth it again
You pinch the sun between your forefingers
And pull it back to the sky
You make him turn and run
When you smile I know
I'm done
What I didn't think was possible
Is with you
The perfection of your eyes makes me
Feel something.
That I'm going to be alright.

Mantra"Your fine
Your going to be ok"
A broken mantra you hiss
Pushing your palms to your cheeks
Sobbing while
Everything in you pulls apart and breaks
"Tell me!"
Screaming now
Choking on what is left of your sanity
Begging for an answer
And now you feel sick
Because your still stuck
No matter how hard you try
You can't
Can't move on
Can't live
Can't explain
Can't breathe
Anymore at all
Too gaurded to understand

LiquorKisses twinged with liquor
My imagination? Or a reality
I'm drunk. Shit-faced. Plastered.
All I wanted was you. Was that so hard?
I just needed to lose myself for one night.
Spinning, going down. Throat burning. Eyes drowning.
Does this brokenness ever stop?
Am I ever going to find someone?
I know I'm young, but I've never needed someone more than I wanted him.
So keep them coming. Bottle after bottle.
Whiskey. Vodka. Rum.
I don't care, just make sure I can't feel anything.
Nothing. Especially him.
His kisses on my mouth, my neck and the back of my hands.
And my sobbing, scared to death.
What scared me was how ha

Strike A MatchSquatting down in the gravel
Lighting the fire
Setting your face aflame
Finally severing what's left of you from me
I'm so sorry
But I can't do this anymore
I can't keep this up

I've found someone who'll take care of me
(I think)
And even if I'm wrong its worth the risk

I'm tired of waiting up for you
Convincing everyone you'll come back.

I'm leaving you behind
I've done all I can do

Just remember
Even in a year
When I'm still wrapped up in his arms
And madly in love
And I've given him all of me...

I will always remember you.

Pawns of God"Why are you crying?"

"Why do you care?
Its not your concern
Like me, your just a pawn in his game."

And I'm the hostage
Choking me and meddling with my life
Russian roulette with a knife blade
To see where I'll cut today
But I won't
Because I can't

Figure It OutI've figured it out
Why when I think of you I break down
Because everyday I plunge deeper into this blackness
And I can't see the truth
As horrible as that sounds
But I don't know
If your just what you seem
A liar and deciever
Or if the way you look at me means something
But the reason I'm sobbing is simple
I think I'm falling in love with you
Slowly, but steadily
And I can't make it stop
No matter how bad I want to
It would be better for everyone if I was gone
And I didn't stumble over my own feet around you
I'm crying because I know I'll get hurt
But I'm powerless to stop myself from wanting you

What Have You DoneWhat did you do to me?
Did you really have that much power over me?
Now I can't even feel the sun on my face
Without feeling like its not light but death clawing across my skin?

That I can't look at so much as a picture
Of grass and summer
With out feeling sick

Did you really have to destory me?
And rip something as beautiful as you away from me?

What the hell is wrong with you
I love you but I just don't care
Because now my main concern is this-

What the fuck did you do to me?!

WhyHow does this happen?
Why did we go here?

Why are we apart
Why is this romance splintered
Why are we driven apart?

How is it fair that they're love
Not built on partnership but on lust
Has lasted this long
We we're stronger then them you idiot!
We we're so much better!

How did this happen?
How the hell did we get here?

What will it take, love
Just to get us out?

DarlingWon't you please touch me like you did today?
Gently, like you don't want to break me
Can you please look at me like you did that afternoon?
Like I am the only thing that matters?
Can you kiss me like you did while I was sleeping?
Passionately, roughly
Hold me like you did that day
Like you would fall apart if you let me go
Can you help me back to my feet?
Shield the sun from my eyes
I would do the same
I'd shoulder the bags you carry, on top of mine
I'd never leave you or hurt you
So could you do the same?

All We Are Not...All I am is numbers
I am not expected to breathe of feel
Only think, and work
To my parent's, I am nothing but a GPA
Head down, under the table clutching a pen
Fighting every instinct telling me to do it
Dig in as deep as I can
Struggle and try to end it
The only question they ask isn't about me
I don't even think they care
Don't believe me, because I'm too perfect to want to die
Too pretty
Too smart
But it doesn't matter
To them, its never enough.

Someone Like YouI can't stay away from you
We can't fight this
There' something more...just under your skin
The traces of your fingertips across my shoulders
My collarbone
My neck, my mouth
A thumb pushing away the saltwater on my cheeks
Your mouth turned down in frustration, and telling me you don't understand
But you don't say a word
You see the scratches on my arms
And you do speak now, and you ask me why I would do this
You pull the words out of me with no effort
My heartbroken story
How he left me
The first time I tried to end myself
The day I met you
The second time I tried
How you saved me
You manage to glue this br

RegretsFeel them?
Weigh you down
Since rash decisions make you spin around
You stop and stare
Wonder wonder
Is there something there?
Brush your fingers across my hand
Not a mistake because I can feel you there
Squeeze my fingers
Smile at me
Hand goes numb
You miss me?
Finally after three long months you feel my pain
Only memories remain
Your eyes scream your pain
"I never stopped loving you
I couldn't if I tried
You are my first, my one and only
Please, one more chance
Please."

Fix Your HeadUnderstand him
Don't over think things
Just remember all the good things he's done
Be kind to him
If you trust him, he won't hurt you
But this isn't only about you
Its about him too
Inhale, exhale
Slip under the radar
Take him with you
Escape from the insanity

There Are Two Sides to Every StoryIs this an act?
Do you want me back?

Something else?
Like what?

That empty smile mercilessly knifed across your face
The reflection of my own broken soul in your eyes
Is that supossed to mean you over me?
Your stares in my direction
And the first time I've seen true light in your eyes

So today
Your little act
And secret stares
Feather light smile weighed down by guilt

Convincing as they might be
Sweetie, don't even try to say your over me

SkyYour eyes are like a sky
The deepest, richest blue
Cloudless, perfect, a void of escape
Not a sea taht I could drown in
Resting my head on the crook of your neck
Breathing in clean air
Instead of a plague you are a cure
The sweetest antidote
Intoxicating
This is a dream
Its unnatural-the way you make me feel
Is this a fantasy?
Or is it about to become my reality?

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If you love me and the wounds in my chest reflect yours tell me
Because every second I love you more
I can't explain it, I hate it
But I don't want to lose you
I'm horrified of being in love
But every time your near me that fear is gone
Why can't I stop loving you?
When I know you don't feel the same?
You hold her close, dreaming of her
But when I'm trying to stop the bleeding you are what keeps me sane
If ending me stops this feeling of loss, this is goodbye
But I don't want to let go
So please
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Is it?Is it the timid flush in her eyes that makes you feel like a man?
Her painful, shy silence that draws you to her kiss?
Or does the fire we have scare you?
And make you wish for stable ground?
Those sparks in your eyes when you touch me-electricty that makes you stumble
Where you scared? Is that why you ran into her arms?
Are you just as horrified as I am?
Of being hurt?

BecauseI don't know why I hurt so much
It's not like you walked out
Because you never walked in
And that's what hurts the most
Was it because she's prettier than me?
Skinnier?
Quieter?
Not loud, strange like me?
Maybe you just like the way she looks next to you
Or the flush in her cheeks, on her flawless skin
She's danity, and cute.
Shes also weak. And breakable.

It's because she's not covered in scars. Isn't it?
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She's scarless?

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Better Than the Original

by *malphasloveshisfries, Apr 2, 2012, 5:44:05 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

You make me feel different
You take my breath away
And stare at me
With eyes
Hypnotic, affectionate
You're the one thing I despretely need
Stepping close enough to me I feel your hair brushing my forehead
Angling your head down
Like you want me
Just as much as I need you
Making my skin feel warm
Plugging my wounds
Making me whole again
Thank you.

Better Than the Originalby *malphasloveshisfries

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~Katybloom Apr 5, 2012 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

lovely work. x

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*malphasloveshisfries Apr 5, 2012 Student Writer

Thank you dear.

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*ZannaCox Apr 2, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

explain who this is about?

I is curious... >

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*malphasloveshisfries Apr 2, 2012 Student Writer

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~EverydayBattman Apr 2, 2012 Hobbyist Digital Artist

Love it! Don't change anything about it! Perfect!

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*malphasloveshisfries Apr 2, 2012 Student Writer

Thanks. haha

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