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Forget MeQuietly you forget me
I'll slip away
Untwine my fingers from your warm hands
I was too late
I told you
I loved you
Just not how much
So now there's nothing left to do but watch you
And find solace in your peace
I'll take back my bags from you
I'll shoulder them myself
I'll do what people do
I'll play a sad song
(Or two)
And have a drink in your name
Maybe strike a match and burn your picure
Through my bitter sobs and angry tears
But maybe,
Tonight
I'll close my eyes and think of you
Your eyes
And your smile
Those odd things you'd try to hide so desperately
Those things that made you so real to me

HateBut I hate myself
I hate my fucking pride
And how much I speak out
I wish I could stop living
And just fall into your arms
Listen to your kind voice
Singing me to sleep
And your touch on my face
I wish I wasn't so stupid
That I have come to love you
I wish I could just leave
Because I have nothing left to say
I love you more than anything
But I don't even care
I just hate myself
I just
want
to
DIE.

I Adore YouIt takes all my self-control
Not to take your hand
To squeeze your fingers so tight
Until the very core of your bones ache for me
To promise you I'll never let you feel alone
That in your darkness
I will never leave you
Even if you beg me
I won't go
I'll grab your hands and kiss you
I'll break the silence on your tongue
For how badly I want to hear you laugh
To see your lovely, stupid smile
And to know,
That you're going to be alright again
Because I adore you
More than words can say
More than thousands of poems
And buckets of used pens,
Ashes of burnt up pages
Useless stories
That could never say how m

I'm FineI can't do this
I can't walk in smiling like everything is fine
Because its not
I can't put on a nice dress and act like I feel beautiful
Because I don't
I can't smile and laugh like I'm not dying
I don't want to walk in and see them
Her, in the place that I should be
Everyone having someone
A friend, a partner
Everyone but me
I can't just sit here
Crying my eyes out over this dress
Watching my anger hit the floor in shining, smaller teardrops
I can't hold it together
I can't do it anymore

AliveI want to speak, cry for help, but I don't say a word.
I want you to hear me, so I cover your ears.
I want someone like you to see me, so I blindfold you.
You make me feel like I'm not worthless.
I'm not neglected or alone anymore.
You're the only thing that makes me feel alive again.
You make me feel like I'm worth the trouble, I'm an even trade for the pain, and all the heartache I put you through.
How hard is it just to lean down, whisper in my ear those four worthless words:
"You are worth it."
How hard is it? Just to hold my hand and tell me that things are going to be alright?
That this isn't as fucked up as

Figure It OutI've figured it out
Why when I think of you I break down
Because everyday I plunge deeper into this blackness
And I can't see the truth
As horrible as that sounds
But I don't know
If your just what you seem
A liar and deciever
Or if the way you look at me means something
But the reason I'm sobbing is simple
I think I'm falling in love with you
Slowly, but steadily
And I can't make it stop
No matter how bad I want to
It would be better for everyone if I was gone
And I didn't stumble over my own feet around you
I'm crying because I know I'll get hurt
But I'm powerless to stop myself from wanting you

Better Than the OriginalYou make me feel different
You take my breath away
And stare at me
With eyes
Hypnotic, affectionate
You're the one thing I despretely need
Stepping close enough to me I feel your hair brushing my forehead
Angling your head down
Like you want me
Just as much as I need you
Making my skin feel warm
Plugging my wounds
Making me whole again
Thank you.

RegretsFeel them?
Weigh you down
Since rash decisions make you spin around
You stop and stare
Wonder wonder
Is there something there?
Brush your fingers across my hand
Not a mistake because I can feel you there
Squeeze my fingers
Smile at me
Hand goes numb
You miss me?
Finally after three long months you feel my pain
Only memories remain
Your eyes scream your pain
"I never stopped loving you
I couldn't if I tried
You are my first, my one and only
Please, one more chance
Please."

Fix Your HeadUnderstand him
Don't over think things
Just remember all the good things he's done
Be kind to him
If you trust him, he won't hurt you
But this isn't only about you
Its about him too
Inhale, exhale
Slip under the radar
Take him with you
Escape from the insanity

Mantra"Your fine
Your going to be ok"
A broken mantra you hiss
Pushing your palms to your cheeks
Sobbing while
Everything in you pulls apart and breaks
"Tell me!"
Screaming now
Choking on what is left of your sanity
Begging for an answer
And now you feel sick
Because your still stuck
No matter how hard you try
You can't
Can't move on
Can't live
Can't explain
Can't breathe
Anymore at all
Too gaurded to understand

There Are Two Sides to Every StoryIs this an act?
Do you want me back?

Something else?
Like what?

That empty smile mercilessly knifed across your face
The reflection of my own broken soul in your eyes
Is that supossed to mean you over me?
Your stares in my direction
And the first time I've seen true light in your eyes

So today
Your little act
And secret stares
Feather light smile weighed down by guilt

Convincing as they might be
Sweetie, don't even try to say your over me

What Have You DoneWhat did you do to me?
Did you really have that much power over me?
Now I can't even feel the sun on my face
Without feeling like its not light but death clawing across my skin?

That I can't look at so much as a picture
Of grass and summer
With out feeling sick

Did you really have to destory me?
And rip something as beautiful as you away from me?

What the hell is wrong with you
I love you but I just don't care
Because now my main concern is this-

What the fuck did you do to me?!

Did You Forget?Did you forget the silk of his hands
Slipping under the front of your shirt and teasing your skin
And his lips sucking under your collarbones
Leaving sultry, purple marks

You could never forget
The way his kiss is, rough and hard
Salty and sweet
The taste of his tongue and the bulk of his shoulders

But how did I forget, something I never had?

GoodnightThe words
They pound inside my skull
They scream
They hurt, the things he says
I know better but I don't want to
But when I close my eyes to sleep they flash
Etch into my skin
Burn across my eyes
Two words
I've pleaded to hear so desperately
But dripping
Drops of liquor
From the wrong tongue, with a kiss that burns like salt
"Goodnight beautiful."

DarlingWon't you please touch me like you did today?
Gently, like you don't want to break me
Can you please look at me like you did that afternoon?
Like I am the only thing that matters?
Can you kiss me like you did while I was sleeping?
Passionately, roughly
Hold me like you did that day
Like you would fall apart if you let me go
Can you help me back to my feet?
Shield the sun from my eyes
I would do the same
I'd shoulder the bags you carry, on top of mine
I'd never leave you or hurt you
So could you do the same?

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That I don't do as I'm told
I'm sorry I'm not submissive and that your words don't stop me cold
I don't give fuck if you hate me
That's just the worthless slut that I am
I don't care if you don't love me
Its just another blow
I'll shrug it off and walk away
Because I just don't care anymore
I'm watching every dream I have ever had crumble down around me
Your fist keeps on striking me and I don't feel a thing
I'll tear up this paper
I'll break everything in sight until there's silence
And you shut your mouth
I won't stop this pain (this pleasure) until I'm restored
It's a dirty, filthy path

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I don't cut for him
I want to stop because of him
I want to be someone he could be proud of
He makes me want to be better than I am
He is my muse,
He is my entire world
And he can barely remember my name
I am just another face in his crowd
I'm not the one he loves
Or the one he wants
But it does't matter to me
I just want to stop
For him

MuseI lose my focus
And I gain my talent back
You are my muse
My heart
I no longer have choice
My hand is in yours
And your leading me along
A happy ending, eventually
Maybe you could find me
And I could find you
In this tangled trap
And maybe
You, my muse
You could find my heart again
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My one
The only love I could feel
You could love me selfishly
And I could make you the happiest man on earth
And maybe you, my muse
You could become my heart again

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by *malphasloveshisfries, Sep 19, 2012, 11:42:09 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

If you're happy, I'm happy
If you're ok, so am I
But I am so lonely
I am being devoured by my sorrow
The sadness that runs too deep
A brand on my neck
Blood screaming from my hands
I wish I was the smile on your mouth
The laughter in your daydreams
The flavor of strawberries on your tongue
I'm so hungry
So starved of the safety I have in your arms
Desperate for you affection
Such a pathetic sight
Me, begging on my hands and knees
So hopeless
So pathetic
Longing to belong With nobody but you
I've never had anybody smile at me the way you do
Or make me feel so at ease
I'm pathetic for wanting you
Craving you so greedily
But loving you so carefully
So selflessly

Happyby *malphasloveshisfries

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That Butler, Greedy!
I've been re reading Phobia. Don't judge. D:

More teenage angst~~Yay. <3

I am really not used to having some of my best friends (that I attend school with) on this account. So I'll upload some suicidal love poem and they'll be flipping out on me the next day and I'll be standing there just like: "what? I didn't say-oh! shit!"

Haha.

ILY GUYS.

Ellie

~ShinuOokami Oct 13, 2012

Just going to say i've read a lot of your poems, you do some amazing writing and i'm happy i followed you! However if you really feel this way know you can email me (thewafer@gmail.com) if you need someone anonymous to talk to!

*malphasloveshisfries Oct 13, 2012 Student Writer

Thank you so much!!! :'D

And I will. ^_^ Tyvm!

*ZannaCox Sep 20, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

I don't think I say this to you often, but I am absolutely in love with your poetry, Em.

I should make you a scrap book of the best ones, and then make it all nice and pretty. that way, if you ever decide to tell Him, you don't have to say anything at all. Just hand him the book.

*malphasloveshisfries Sep 20, 2012 Student Writer

Why thank you.

Your making me stiffely. :'D

*ZannaCox Sep 20, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

Actually, that's a good idea....

*malphasloveshisfries Sep 20, 2012 Student Writer

....why

*ZannaCox Sep 20, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

Beacause you'd get it out, and all youd have to do was get it to him somehow.

.... Without destroying my handy-work that is.

*malphasloveshisfries Sep 22, 2012 Student Writer

nupe.

~The-Warden-Rose Sep 20, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Haha it's cause we love you and we're scared for you sometimes

feel our love and anger mixed together and let it fill the whole you've dug in yourself

*malphasloveshisfries Sep 20, 2012 Student Writer

and drown me?

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