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Forget MeQuietly you forget me
I'll slip away
Untwine my fingers from your warm hands
I was too late
I told you
I loved you
Just not how much
So now there's nothing left to do but watch you
And find solace in your peace
I'll take back my bags from you
I'll shoulder them myself
I'll do what people do
I'll play a sad song
(Or two)
And have a drink in your name
Maybe strike a match and burn your picure
Through my bitter sobs and angry tears
But maybe,
Tonight
I'll close my eyes and think of you
Your eyes
And your smile
Those odd things you'd try to hide so desperately
Those things that made you so real to me

Morphine EyesYour hands are so much bigger than my own
And I find it enchanting-the display of your fingers touching mine
Like a mirror, I can see myself in you
In the sea blue of those morphine eyes
Surely beauty does not exist elsewhere
Maybe God has created you from the clay of the earth himself
And captured the glow of the moon in your iris
And your laugh has been woven from the bells of heaven
I wish you could see how I look at you, my love
That just for a moment you could see just how beautiful you are
Even if you don't like it, I can see it
Your gentle hands
And the curve of your mouth
You are a wonder to me
Both you, and

Not SorryI'm sorry I'm a fuck-up
That I don't do as I'm told
I'm sorry I'm not submissive and that your words don't stop me cold
I don't give fuck if you hate me
That's just the worthless slut that I am
I don't care if you don't love me
Its just another blow
I'll shrug it off and walk away
Because I just don't care anymore
I'm watching every dream I have ever had crumble down around me
Your fist keeps on striking me and I don't feel a thing
I'll tear up this paper
I'll break everything in sight until there's silence
And you shut your mouth
I won't stop this pain (this pleasure) until I'm restored
It's a dirty, filthy path

IncreasingI don't like pain
I hate the way my scissors sting
I don't care for the way blood sticks to my wrists
The cotton itching against my opened skin
But I do like the feeling
The way I slump to the floor in reilef
My ignorance of the depth increasing
I don't like the pain
But I do love the feeling
The progress of the depth increasing
God, I love the feeling
Of the only peace I've known
That embrace that I have,
It may be the only one
The calming voice of skin splitting
The gentle smile of blood on silver
The only feeling of love I know
Getting stronger
As the depth's increasing

VivianI wish we could start over
Sitting outside on that bench
With sickened clouds above us, that day we met
And I spent the next three years by your side
Then I let tragedy strike
And hope fell into pieces between our feet
I'm so sorry, for being so selfish
And never calling you back, or responding
These past weeks your name has been bleached into my skin
And I want to get down on my knees and pray that you haven't left us yet
Please, Vivvy I'm begging you
To hold out one more night
The moment I see daylight I'm coming for you
I promise you

But
I've missed you so much
Are the words that rush from my mouth
My fingers

I Adore YouIt takes all my self-control
Not to take your hand
To squeeze your fingers so tight
Until the very core of your bones ache for me
To promise you I'll never let you feel alone
That in your darkness
I will never leave you
Even if you beg me
I won't go
I'll grab your hands and kiss you
I'll break the silence on your tongue
For how badly I want to hear you laugh
To see your lovely, stupid smile
And to know,
That you're going to be alright again
Because I adore you
More than words can say
More than thousands of poems
And buckets of used pens,
Ashes of burnt up pages
Useless stories
That could never say how m

AddictAddict
Addict Addict Addict
A few more cuts
One more slice
A few more drops, a little bit deeper
Crazy
Crazy Crazy Crazy
To get off on your own pain
Messed up
I'm insane
Addict
You can call it poetic
Brave
Sympathetic
But at the end of the day
I'm nothing but an addict

MuseI lose my focus
And I gain my talent back
You are my muse
My heart
I no longer have choice
My hand is in yours
And your leading me along
A happy ending, eventually
Maybe you could find me
And I could find you
In this tangled trap
And maybe
You, my muse
You could find my heart again
You could be my only
My one
The only love I could feel
You could love me selfishly
And I could make you the happiest man on earth
And maybe you, my muse
You could become my heart again

TwistedMy twisted heart is beating inside my threadbare shirt
My chest is falling
But that's boring
With out so much as a a sting
Or a burn
Or an ache
No trouble. No toil. No excitement or pain.
What is life without excitement?
How do I know that I'm alive?
Am I somewhere outside, slumped on a desk? Lost in a nightmare with cuts on my wrists?
But they long have faded into the tan of my skin
I have no connection, no life-line
I'm feeling your cheeks with numb hands
Tasting your lips with my rotting blue tongue
My hands are ice under your shirt
I'm just searching for a heartbeat
You're sick
You're revolting
But I want you
Any addiction
Any

HereI want you here with me
Under these trees
In petal covered grass
Leaning up against you and talking like we should
My muse, my heart-I want your peace and your sorrow
I want you in shadow or in sunlight
In depaire or in the high life
I want you, my night sky
My welcome heartache
My inspiration
My lover, my soul
My best friend, my partner
No matter how much anger, or hate fills me, I want you
I feel it inside me
I know it in my mind
I want your trust, your friendship
If I earn nothing more,
Beileve me....its fine.

ScreamingI won't cry
No matter how many nights I lay here screaming
I will not let a tear fall
I'll seal this bottle shut
Then I'll drink this one down...
Just hazy
Tiny
Miscroscopic red marks until the aching goes away
Night after night
Smear away the gore
Shaking in relief
But whimpering in fear
Because slowly, they will become deeper
And his touch, it will grow colder
And you will find your self screaming
All alone in his house
Pounding on the bedroom door
While he's holding her and you keep screaming
But nobody can hear you
Because you are all alone

Because you cannot stop.

All You Are Is MistShut up.
None of you are there
You promised.
You promised me you would never leave
I trusted you and you abandoned me
You left me like the worthless wretch I am
There is nothing left. Do you hear me?! Nothing!
You aren't there! None of you are there!
So just shut up.
And I'll cut
And cut
Under I can see that blood...
Like honey, a drug
Relief so hypnotic I stagger
The only cure...
You...my precious lover..
You are gone
All you are is mist.

Over and OverI didn't cut today
Because when I was angry I thought of you
Of how when you dominated my thoughts
You appeared in front of me
The sudden light in your eyes
I haven't seen it for so long
And how it took my breath away
I try to remember the shaking of my hands
My swimming vision
So captivated by the motion of your mouth
Hypnotized by the warm crescendo of your voice
Drowning in the heat of your gaze
I smile
When I wonder about my self-control
Wondering why I didn't kiss you
And promise you that she could never love you
Not as much as me
I don't understand anything, really
Why I continue this
Over and over
A

GoodnightThe words
They pound inside my skull
They scream
They hurt, the things he says
I know better but I don't want to
But when I close my eyes to sleep they flash
Etch into my skin
Burn across my eyes
Two words
I've pleaded to hear so desperately
But dripping
Drops of liquor
From the wrong tongue, with a kiss that burns like salt
"Goodnight beautiful."

Not enoughIt's not the wrong words
Or the mistake you've made
It's the lies you tell to me
When you try to hide the truth

How could I ever trust you
When the one I love the most
Smiles, tells everything is fine
While whole world is falling apart

And the look on your face
When I wasn't what you excepted
I shattered your beautiful dream
Turned it into cold reality
As I couldn't fullfill your wish

Oh how I hate myself
I'm never enough for you
I cannot change inner me
Nor the emotions I have

I'm beautiful no more
Your love has withered
Was it only for my looks
Did you care after all

You won't admit it to me
From your eyes I see the tr

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I Promised

by *malphasloveshisfries, Jan 8, 2013, 6:24:33 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Such a violent blue
Fluttering against pale skin
Have I ever seen the sunlight?
How many weeks since I've seen your face?
Dragging the lead of a pencil across my skin
It lights with adrenaline
Twisted pleasure
And my skin begins to burn for just a minor bite
An ity-bity drop
An old friend stops by to visit
Seduces me with silver
Licks away the pain
The blood rolling down my wrists
Pooling my my palms
Dripping down my calves
How glorious-! The punishment for being so stupid
How haunts me, and I dream of it
The sick victory
Of ripping my skin open wide
I need it
I miss it
I haven't
I won't

I promised.

I Promisedby *malphasloveshisfries

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I feel privileged that my only current major life problem is deciding if I want to watch Sherlock or Iron Man.

-Ellie.

~Shadows-Seductress Jan 9, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Amazing visual darling

*malphasloveshisfries Jan 17, 2013 Student Writer

Ty.

*SuperGirlSwag Jan 9, 2013

i love this!!!

*malphasloveshisfries Jan 16, 2013 Student Writer

Ty.

~amh97 Jan 8, 2013

You should watch Sherlock, if only for the awesome shipping opportunities (johnlock) and great character interactions (johnlock) and everything else (johnlock)

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