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AddictAddict
Addict Addict Addict
A few more cuts
One more slice
A few more drops, a little bit deeper
Crazy
Crazy Crazy Crazy
To get off on your own pain
Messed up
I'm insane
Addict
You can call it poetic
Brave
Sympathetic
But at the end of the day
I'm nothing but an addict

I Adore YouIt takes all my self-control
Not to take your hand
To squeeze your fingers so tight
Until the very core of your bones ache for me
To promise you I'll never let you feel alone
That in your darkness
I will never leave you
Even if you beg me
I won't go
I'll grab your hands and kiss you
I'll break the silence on your tongue
For how badly I want to hear you laugh
To see your lovely, stupid smile
And to know,
That you're going to be alright again
Because I adore you
More than words can say
More than thousands of poems
And buckets of used pens,
Ashes of burnt up pages
Useless stories
That could never say how m

Morphine EyesYour hands are so much bigger than my own
And I find it enchanting-the display of your fingers touching mine
Like a mirror, I can see myself in you
In the sea blue of those morphine eyes
Surely beauty does not exist elsewhere
Maybe God has created you from the clay of the earth himself
And captured the glow of the moon in your iris
And your laugh has been woven from the bells of heaven
I wish you could see how I look at you, my love
That just for a moment you could see just how beautiful you are
Even if you don't like it, I can see it
Your gentle hands
And the curve of your mouth
You are a wonder to me
Both you, and

VivianI wish we could start over
Sitting outside on that bench
With sickened clouds above us, that day we met
And I spent the next three years by your side
Then I let tragedy strike
And hope fell into pieces between our feet
I'm so sorry, for being so selfish
And never calling you back, or responding
These past weeks your name has been bleached into my skin
And I want to get down on my knees and pray that you haven't left us yet
Please, Vivvy I'm begging you
To hold out one more night
The moment I see daylight I'm coming for you
I promise you

But
I've missed you so much
Are the words that rush from my mouth
My fingers

HateBut I hate myself
I hate my fucking pride
And how much I speak out
I wish I could stop living
And just fall into your arms
Listen to your kind voice
Singing me to sleep
And your touch on my face
I wish I wasn't so stupid
That I have come to love you
I wish I could just leave
Because I have nothing left to say
I love you more than anything
But I don't even care
I just hate myself
I just
want
to
DIE.

Shut Up, VoiceI'm not worthless
But you are
Today I'll tell him
He'll just laugh at you
I want to stop
But you can't
I'm tired of being broken
You'll never be whole again
I'm better than this
You are nothing
I'll stand up to them
They'll just hit you again
I could be perfect if I try
Not as perfect as her
I don't want to go down that road again
All you can do is crawl
I'm not going to cut today
You're going to write that note today
They'll have to stop, sometime
It's not going to end

Sneak InSneak in the window
I won't tell
Just curl up under the covers with me and hold me
Her brown eyes are closed
I just need one night
Of harmless teasing
Your mouth on my forehead
My fingers digging into your shirt, I'm shaking
Your own tears touch my cheeks when you kiss me-you commit the fatal sin
But with your hands in my hair it doesn't matter
The man and his adulteress burning in the fire they created
Your knuckles stroking my jaw
You kiss me and tighten your hold over and over
Since when its dawn you have to leave
The sun starts rising
And you're crying too
Because you don't want to leave
I make your life b

Not SorryI'm sorry I'm a fuck-up
That I don't do as I'm told
I'm sorry I'm not submissive and that your words don't stop me cold
I don't give fuck if you hate me
That's just the worthless slut that I am
I don't care if you don't love me
Its just another blow
I'll shrug it off and walk away
Because I just don't care anymore
I'm watching every dream I have ever had crumble down around me
Your fist keeps on striking me and I don't feel a thing
I'll tear up this paper
I'll break everything in sight until there's silence
And you shut your mouth
I won't stop this pain (this pleasure) until I'm restored
It's a dirty, filthy path

DarlingWon't you please touch me like you did today?
Gently, like you don't want to break me
Can you please look at me like you did that afternoon?
Like I am the only thing that matters?
Can you kiss me like you did while I was sleeping?
Passionately, roughly
Hold me like you did that day
Like you would fall apart if you let me go
Can you help me back to my feet?
Shield the sun from my eyes
I would do the same
I'd shoulder the bags you carry, on top of mine
I'd never leave you or hurt you
So could you do the same?

IncreasingI don't like pain
I hate the way my scissors sting
I don't care for the way blood sticks to my wrists
The cotton itching against my opened skin
But I do like the feeling
The way I slump to the floor in reilef
My ignorance of the depth increasing
I don't like the pain
But I do love the feeling
The progress of the depth increasing
God, I love the feeling
Of the only peace I've known
That embrace that I have,
It may be the only one
The calming voice of skin splitting
The gentle smile of blood on silver
The only feeling of love I know
Getting stronger
As the depth's increasing

Forget MeQuietly you forget me
I'll slip away
Untwine my fingers from your warm hands
I was too late
I told you
I loved you
Just not how much
So now there's nothing left to do but watch you
And find solace in your peace
I'll take back my bags from you
I'll shoulder them myself
I'll do what people do
I'll play a sad song
(Or two)
And have a drink in your name
Maybe strike a match and burn your picure
Through my bitter sobs and angry tears
But maybe,
Tonight
I'll close my eyes and think of you
Your eyes
And your smile
Those odd things you'd try to hide so desperately
Those things that made you so real to me

ApathyAffection is a disease
It blinds the eyes and plugs the ears
It's a clear vision, of nothing but emptiness
Tying the tongue!
Dyes it with value!
Coats it with worthless words of silver and red
It is nothing but a trick
A slide of hand under a skin-tight shirt
And that's all it take
To make somebody fall in love

To heartless abandon the dreams that you once had
Fall into bed! Into pleasure!
Into the skin of a stranger

And I have been called sick
And sadistic and vain

But you are all so blind
That you are living a lie
You can't see the delirium when it leaks from your lips
And the poisons so purple dripping across

Why We Bother TryingWhy do I even bother trying?
I'm never going to change
I'm not strong enough
Why do I even try to make myself something?
Maybe they're right
And I am nothing
I will be nothing
I'll just stay here forever
I'm never getting out
I'm never going to be free of them
They'll keep hurting me
The two halves that created my life
Something nobody wanted
That I never wanted
But something that someone else wanted?
That he wanted?
And I wasn't anything
I had nothing to give
But he had everything to gain
So instead we both threw it away
Because we don't know anymore
Why we bother trying

Your LoveYour love is whiskey
Burning sweet
Sultry tangy bitter drops piercing my tongue
Gulps in my throat
The more I take, the more regrets I'll have
Were falling and tangling up
Further and further
At our breaking point
Shattering on the bathroom floor
Into pieces, broken bottles and hoarse screams
Mixing with pouring water and empty promises
Digging nails into skin
Whiskey spilling over onto the bed
Table tops and soaking clothes
Bitter
Addicting
Your love is like whiskey

A StrangerIts strange to see you
After all these months
This past year
The hell fires I fought through
Isn't it unfair?
How this little exchange works?
That you breaking me made me who I am
But who I am
Is someone who could have loved you
Wholly, fully.
Without limits.
The little quirks that this battle installed in me
Are things that could have saved me
Am I really?
Thinking about you?
Again?
About the way its been planned
That no matter how desprete I am,
For anyone, not just you
That I'm never going back
To anyone, not just you
This smarter, stronger girl
Is never being held again
Not with scencerity
Or co

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Who's the fool now?You are the liar
I was the fool

I just felt so right
You made me so high

It feels so good to believe what he says
Let my stone cold heart break and bend
It feels so good to put trust in my eyes
Faith in his lies
But that's seconds before he breaks me
When he takes me then he wrecks me
Melt me and mold me till I'm iron clay in those hands that could've held me
But that just use me and abuse me
And hope that I understand

But darling I won't buy it
If you want me, I dare you to try it
Because no matter how good it feels to trust what you say
And if you think things will be the same,
I can promise you they will.

Because I am

Am I?Am I selfish?
Spoiled?
Arrogant?
Just wanted attention?
What is so wrong with me I've just realized this know?
I honestly thought so many people cared that I would talk about myself so much, never bother to ask
If someone else, with more problems then the selfish affairs of my heart...
Is alright?
What have I become? Why do I hate myself so much?
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Sneak InSneak in the window
I won't tell
Just curl up under the covers with me and hold me
Her brown eyes are closed
I just need one night
Of harmless teasing
Your mouth on my forehead
My fingers digging into your shirt, I'm shaking
Your own tears touch my cheeks when you kiss me-you commit the fatal sin
But with your hands in my hair it doesn't matter
The man and his adulteress burning in the fire they created
Your knuckles stroking my jaw
You kiss me and tighten your hold over and over
Since when its dawn you have to leave
The sun starts rising
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Because you don't want to leave
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Pasted On Your Face

by *malphasloveshisfries, Nov 21, 2012, 6:05:55 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

It's really just a simple brushstroke
A happy masquerade
You think of how strong you are
And paste it on your face
You try not to act like
Blood's sticking to the underside of your shirt
And that you weren't just cursing yourself
Becuause she got there first
And you act like its all fine, it's all good
That you aren't being tortured
As much as you should
That you aren't devestatingly lonely
And your trashed heart isn't broken
You smear this act
This pointless coat of paint across your skin
Like everything is fine

Pasted On Your Faceby *malphasloveshisfries

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~happyhappymorbid Nov 23, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

holy shit. like to the umpteenth level.

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~Shadows-Seductress Nov 23, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

I like this.

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*malphasloveshisfries Nov 24, 2012 Student Writer

Thanks

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